Withering Wishful Whisper

Cold wind blowing, the cool moist air is just brushing past me. But I am sitting dumbstruck. I haven't eaten a morsel for how many days, I don't know. I can feel the tears drying up on my cheek and again coming. I can't stop them. I am staring blankly at the window. I don't know what to do. I feel scared. I feel ashamed. But still I could remember the day when I was fifteen and he was sixteen. Staring at him blankly reminds me of all the days in the past as if it was just yesterday. I can still feel the burning inside me. I can hears my friends shouting my name , "Jenny you cannot do anything. You are hopeless. We were all depending on you and you just made us hung our head low infront of them. What are you waiting for , you still got a chance to prove them wrong.". My friends had a fight with a girl named Ketty. They rather had a bet that I won't be able to do gymnastic ever in my life as I was very shy in that matter. But nobody understood the reason for my negative answer. My friends encouraged me. And finally after school was over and almost after everybody evacuated the gymnasium, I entered. Terrified I was as soon as I entered but to keep my friend's honour finally I entered. My friend Clara was there to see whether I entered or not, but she told me she won't be able to witness my gymnastic. So she stayed out and I was alone in the gymnasium. I entered peeping to check at every corner for a single soul. To my relief there were none. I went upto the bar to do the full 360 degrees swing there. First time I tried as I was expecting I fell down but didn't get hurt. So I got up and tried again and again till I could do. In my fifth attempt I succeeded with a full 360 degrees swirl but my top blocked on vision so I fell on my back completely. Within some seconds I heard a sweet voice. It was a boy's voice, " Well done." I was shocked and he said, "in fifth attempt only wow." I was terrified and tried to remember if I had ignored seeing him inside when I came in. He gave me his hand and smiled a little. I took his hand and got up. Back to my senses now I realised that was Jade O' Connor, the gymnastic champion and basketball team captain. He was the most popular guy in our school. He was cute, handsome and sports champion and girls were crazy for him... In the mean time, when I went out I found Clara vanished from outside the gymnasium. I was alone and it was dark outside. I comforted myself saying I was big enough to go alone nothing will happen to me. Just as I was lost in comforting myself when Jade came over to me and said, "Let me walk you home today." I tried to convince him it's okay I can go alone. My home is near not that far. But he persisted and finally I had to say yes. Our first day, our first walk together I still remember them. I cherish these memories... I found myself still stuck to his words, "I am going to California for three days. Wish me luck Jenny so that I can win. Though that would be for five days . But still I am so excited Jenny. My flight is tonight. I went home all alone that day. He went home early. As I reached home I found Jade waiting for me. "Hey Jenny why are you so late today? Anyway never mind. Wish me luck. This is my biggest tournament and I need you wishes Jenny." I wished him luck and hugged him, "Bye Jenny take care of yourself." "You too take care of yourself. Have a safe and happy journey." Then he got into his car and sped away. I found myself standing all alone in that dark street. I could see the clouds whispering, the trees laughing and the wind blowing past me. I suddenly started feeling cold, started to shiver. It seemed I am in some frozen place. I am so much struck with pain that I could hardly know what is happening around me. I am dumbstruck. I told myself, " It happened all over again. I am alone again." ...His reply left me stupefied. When suddenly he came near me knelt down and said, "Jenny you are the most wonderful girl I ever met. You are my true and only true friend. You are actually more than just a friend to me. I love you Jenny like anything. I cannot stay away from you. Will you b my girl friend?" I stood up at once forgot all about my pain. "Jade I need to think. I am really sorry Jade but I am afraid I would have to say I need time to think. Clara saw and we realised it when we both turned... ...After he ordered to open my eyes. I still kept them shut. He then tried to forcefully open my eyes by separating the eyelashes. But that is not easy and many times not possible. I guess he realised that, so grabbed my hair and dragged me to the washroom. I kept my eyes shut but I could hear water running. The water has force so the tap was open to full speed. He then lifted something heavy I could hear and by the sound of his footsteps I could tell he is coming towards me. Suddenly water came on my face with full force. I had to open my eyes just to breathe and not let suffocate myself with water... Instantly he grabbed my eyelids so that I cannot close them...