It's My Life

“It’s not for you to listen or read or understand or execute. Neither it is for you to pass time nor repent. It’s for you to think beyond the thoughts, dream beyond the dreams and live as no one has ever lived. Live as you want, not as your parents or siblings or friends or relatives want. No one can fit into your shoes nor can you fit into anyone else’s. No need to pacify, no need to justify, you know what you are and that’s what matters at the end of the seconds. And yes, no need to second anyone. So many people tell you so many things, advise you so many things when neither you need something nor you expect. And the best part is the advisors, the well-wishers and the guides who forget all those beautiful suggestions when they get into the same pit. Does it sound funny? Oh! It really is not. It’s hilarious. I laugh out loud when I think about these so-called two-legged creatures known as human beings. And no one but me enjoys the echo of my own devil’s laugh. I am not lonely although I am alone. I don’t let anyone pity my aloneness as they are too naïve to misunderstand it. I am beyond all these emotions. And I bestow my gratitude upon you for showing me the path to revive myself and leave the feelings behind. The closed doors are opened to visualize my soma in the mid of Antarctica and in the Sahara and in the Pacific.” Said Sayuri without a pause. Sayuri said her heart to him as she was in love with him and he was in love with her much before he knew about it. He had never in love with anyone apart from the nature and himself. However the conversation made them clear that they were made for each other and to live with each other. They became close to each other, not physically, emotionally. Their emotions strengthened their relation that they got addicted to each other. His guts and carefree attitude dragged Afsheen towards him especially when he said one of his seniors, “Sometimes the middle finger speaks more than the words”. Afsheen, his childhood friend, was in love with him but he never entertained her and they remained close to each other best pals. He never crossed the line of friendship and she buried her feelings for him as she knew that he has a thick skin and his decision will never change. He was worth of a guy for any girl. He never let anyone get into his mind and soul but Sayuri and Afsheen. He was thankful to his supernatural power for fulfilling all his dreams by letting these two beautiful ladies being in his life. Destiny had decided something for them which they were unaware of. No one could ever mess with it and it has got all the rights to mess with anyone without letting them know. It can either make or break anyone or anything as per its’ wish. What a dreadful and unpredictable thing it is. Some fear it and some laugh at it but it remained stoic laughing back at them. Sayuri’s parents are orthodox and they had high expectations from the groom for their Sayuri as she was the apple of their eyes. He joined Afsheen’s business to meet the expectations of Sayuri’s parents. His devotion towards his profession brought incredible results in her business and employees were more passionate. “I did not see you calling your parents in last 6-7 months. What’s wrong? You never revealed to me about your family members and my story and I am an open book for you.” asked Afsheen. He looked at her, gave a sarcastic smile and replied, “I have read this statement somewhere a long time back which I would love to share with you ‘I was born and raised by those who praise control of population.” he continued without having an eye contact with her, “I have nothing to share or reveal. I am what I am. How does it matter what my parents were or are, how does it matter what my life was or is, how does it matter what the past was when my present is awesome with the two most beautiful girls of this world and my future is going to be mind-blowing? Ashi, I don’t know what’s wrong, because I never wanted to know. I know that you are a part of my life and Saaya is another part and that’s enough for me. I can live without you and I always will be there for you as I know that you always will be there beside me irrespective of I want you or I don’t but it’s not possible for me to live without Saaya. I love both of you and would appreciate to be with you two forever. I would be the luckiest fella of your God’s creation if I get a chance to have both of your physical presence and her love and soul with me till my last beat.”, his voice choked and he stopped. “Don’t force me to eat. You can hardly force someone to keep the food in his mouth, you never know whether he will gulp it or throw it. So it’s better not to force anyone.”, he said her once when she forced him to eat and irritated him by asking him again and again. “You don’t have to buy emotions, Madam. No one can ever pay for love, the divine, the unconditional love.” Said Rakshita to Afsheen. The book was lying on the table with its’ last page and the last sentence said “Love is inevitable and so is death; love is eternal and so is soul.”